Well, I just wanted to get on here and talk about some things that are important to me.
I have really struggled lately. I have felt so down in the dumps and stressed and upset and overwhelmed and tired and the list goes on and on. These aren't good feelings to have, obviously. I've really struggled to see the good in my life. I've had a hard time being grateful for things that I have and for the people I have in my life.
The worst part about it was that I was trying so hard to do the right things. I felt like I was on the right path, but for some reason I couldn't seem to be happy. How can I possibly be feeling like this? This thought crossed my mind over and over again.
Well, the first thing that popped into my mind was, "Oh, it's just your hormones." But that just didn't seem like a good enough answer. That didn't seem like it should be my rationalization for feeling and acting this way. I just wouldn't let that be my reason.
I finally opened up and talked to Greg. Up until this point, I just figured I was doing everything in my power to do what was right, but, seemingly, to no avail. But after talking to Greg, I realized that I had some pride that I needed to get rid of. That I have some things I can definitely do better.
I realized that I needed to work harder (even though I felt like I was being pushed to the limits). I knew that I had to push myself even further, not physically or mentally, but spiritually. I realized that God was trying to stretch me and help me grow by giving me a really hard week in school and by having me feel uncomfortable. He was trying to get me to change and be better.
Well, I felt like I failed. I had been given a chance to prove myself, that I could get through hard things with a good attitude. But I didn't.
But life is full of hardships and bad attitudes and imperfect people, including myself. I am learning how to make it in this crazy thing called life. I'm going to have bad days, and I'm going to have good days. But having a good attitude, even in those hardest of times, makes it so much easier to bear.
I think God is closer than ever to us on those hard days. It's our job to open up and turn toward Him.
Faith is the key.